I think my gorgeous little cat will be put to sleep today. Mr.B got up this morning at 5:30am for work, and came to get me out of bed.

Brucie seems paralysed from the back down. On top of that he has his heart failure which was diagnosed 3 years ago now, and thyroid problems. The chances of him surviving are very small ..... and i dont want him to suffer.

I have been sat downstairs with him holding his paw for about an hour now, crying like i havent cried before. Unfortunately Mr.B had to go to work, so im all alone, and unsure what to do.

I need to get him to the vets, but im scared. I know he will be put to sleep.

Im not sure how to handle this.

I dont know what to do with him. I want him to be with me, here ... so i want to bring him home. But do i bury him, or cremate him and scatter his ashes in the fields behind us ? I know he has been ill, but i didnt want to think about his death as im weak and afraid.

Its at times like this that i wished i still lived in essex where my family are. I need them.

OH BONNIE!!! If I knew where you were I would be round in a shot. God how awfull.

I don't know what to suggest...if he dosn't seem in pain just carry on holding him and giving him your big soppy kisses - are you off work today?? I don't know what time your vet opens but I don't think ours does till 9 - you had best ring them and see what they suggest. If they do have to put him to sleep you will certainly be able to bring him back home with you. When my sisters alsation was put to sleep they bought her back and she is buried in their garden...they planted a lovely tree there too.

I know how you feel, if / when something happens to Bazeel I will be beside myself.

Let us know how you get on.

BIG HUGGSSS
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I'm so sorry to hear about Brucie, Bonnie....

I'm afraid I don't have any pratical suggestions but my thoughts will be with you today.... I know you will do the best for Brucie, how ever hard it is for you.

Take care Sweetie :hug:

How heartbreaking for you Bonnie. :sad:

I feel very very sad for you.

I'm sorry to hear that hon.

We have an old cat and I know how devastating losing a pet is.

Take care. :hug:

Bonnie, you poor thing.

You know you have to let him go now though - ring the vet, ask if they'll do a home visit after surgery - it might cost a lot, but at least you'll be at home with him and be spared the trip.

If not, and you do have to take him, take a big soft blanket to bring him home in if you decide that's what you want. You can chose whether or not to bring him home or let the vet take care of it - or you might consider a pet graveyard, personally I'd let the vet take care of it.

Can't you get hold of your husband somehow?

I really do feel for you Bons, take care.

Awww, Bonnie sweetheart. I know how much Brucie means to you, and I wish I could give you a great big hug and take the pain away. I really do feel for you, but see what the vet says. He might be able to give him something or sadly he might tell you to put him to sleep. You will be able to take him home and you can decide if you want to bury him. I like Cat's idea of planting a tree.

God Bless honey, we are all here for you. :hug:

Oh Bonnie, :sad:

How really sad for you. Have been there myself so nothing to say other than thinking of you...:hug:

Bonnie, I really don't know what to say.
I know your animals mean alot to you.
All I can say is Bonnie if I were there, you would be having lots of these:hug:

Ah Bonnie you poor thing - what an awful thing to have to deal with.

???....what's a Minklemar, Minklemar? - anything to do with "Heffalumps and Woozles and if you so choozles", at all??:boxing:

Bonnie, I am so sorry to hear about your cat. I adore mine, and I know how inconsolable I would be when something happens to him.

I think it would be kinder to take him to the vet and ask if you can stay with him while the injection takes effect. If it were me, I would take him home and bury him somewhere special in the garden. I would then plant a small bush or other plant next to the spot to remember him by.

I will be thinking of you and Brucie...:hug:

???....what's a Minklemar, Minklemar? - anything to do with "Heffalumps and Woozles and if you so choozles", at all??:boxing:

Thanks for that. I am sure Bonnie will find your comments most helpful.

Oh Bonnie darling, I am so sorry to hear about Brucie, its always so hard isnt it, as they are part of the family, especially in your case, I know what you are like with your babies......

Like Ceri says perhaps you could find a special spot in the garden and then bury him there, and plant a small tree/bush.......we have Nipper Dawg's brother Ripper buried in the garden and planted a flowering bush next to him..........in the summer, Nipper lies in the shade of the bush across his brother!

My thoughts are with you.......lots of love and hugs darling xxx

Aw flippin heck bons - BIG cyber hug from over here......I know it'll be hard for you.....


Thinking of you babes......be strong!!:hug:

Thank you all very much for your replies. It means a lot to me and Mr.B.

I took Brucie to the vets, but unfortunately he had a blood clot, which had got to his spinal column, which meant he was paralysed for the waist down.

He was in pain, and was crying a lot before i took him.

There was nothing that could be done, and i have cried rivers for that baby boy.

I wanted to bring him home with me, and bury him in the back garden. My dad came over (which was a very nice and unexpected suprise) and he dug the hole with me. I felt like a tiny piece of my heart went into that hole ..... and ill never forget him.

Thanks again ...... i really do appreciate all your words, and support. He was our little 'brown boy' and very very special. Ill miss him always.

Awww, Bonbon, that's so sad. I know how much your cats mean to you. And bless your dad.xx

BIG :hug: 's to you Bon xxxx

I'm so sorry Bonnie, but try to take comfort in the fact he is not in pain anymore....

Take care of yourself - thinking of you :hug:

I'm so sorry, Bonnie. Night night, Brucie. xxx

I'm so sorry, Bonnie. Night night, Brucie. xxx

awwww, that just made me cry. Night night indeed my love.

Bonnie sweetheart, I have watery eyes for you and Brucie. I am so sorry petal, what a sad sad day for you, Mr B and Brucie's mates.

Do they know or do you suspect they realise what has happened? I don't suppose Billly will realise or even Bunny, but the other cats will won't they?

Give them all special snogs tonight and tomorrow - and wave a cheery hand to Brucie with a smile on your face and blow him BIG SNOGS - he will be so happy for them you know.

I have now made myself cry Bonnie - love and hugs to all of you.

Bonnie, Im very sorry to hear that. hope you're holding up ok.
I know it sounds ridiculously cliched now, but Brucie is going to a better place and you must remember that.

Bonnie my dear, I am so sorry to hear such sad news.

I have been through the same many too many times, but am always comforted that if a vet's intervention is needed, that I have done the right thing.
This decision is one final, loving gift we can give our beloved animal friends, that we as humans cannot as yet have the luxury of choosing for ourselves.

You gave Brucie the most selfless loving gift, he was lucky to have shared his life, and his leaving of it with such a caring person.

His spirit will always be around somewhere near. Take heart in that.

Wish I could hug you Bons,

Love
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Bonnie, I can only add to what everyone else has said and give my condolences (sp?) to you. Brucie was lucky to have you as an owner and you can look back at all the happy times you had together. He is at peace now and painfree.

Take care, Bonnie. Thoughts are with you.

Thank you guys - I really appreciate everything you have written here.

Flippy - i think his sister Bernie knows something is wrong. When we buried Bruce, Bernie was sitting on the kitchen windowsill ..... just watching. Since then she keeps walking up to me, crying at me as though demanding what i have done with her brother. She wont let me fuss her either which is strange.

Hopefully she will get used to his absence soon though.

I started work today, which was a good thing. I woke up numb and not remotely excited or nervous - but being at work, and having to be professional took my mind off things. It just a shame i had to come home again.

Thanks again fellow animal lovers, and i think this post should be the end of a lovely bitter sweet thread which i have printed off and will keep forever.